invisible bound

ketika sebuah pikiran bermain dan melemparkan pertanyaan2 rumit yang ak ingin di jawab oleh orang lain, dalam pikir nya, hanya ada pertanyaan2 berbelit yang akhirnya menimbulkan pertanyaan baru oleh sang pemikir. sebuah irealita pemikiran, tentang ikatan yang tak terlihat
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year has passed
but still, you bound me to every second i breath
years without your voice, face, even your presence
but this bound still unbreakable, still invisible
how can i free my self from your shackle you've made
if you even stay in the shadow
if you even keep your self far enough from me
from my number
from my fb
far from all about me

but this invisible bound gives me another question

is there really a bound
a bound that schakle me every second im my mind
even in my dreams
your shackle seems drag me to see you in my dreams
to hear you
to feel you
but not being able to touch or to run after you
your shadow run like a light right in front of my eyes
left no time to say a word

is this bound real or even just an imagination?
is it my mind that too strong so created that bound it self?
or it is me who is being to weak, that let my self to be bounded?

not dare to answer
not dare saying if
not dare to dream again
not dare to look to the past

if there is one way to break this bound
i'd love to do it at all cost

remove the shackle
erase the bound
to become . . .
unbound